8 preferences(MBTI) December 2, 2008
Extraversion (E)
Key words:
outer world • people • action • breadth
People who prefer extraversion are energized by active involvement in events, and they like to be immersed in a breadth of activities. They are most excited when they are around people, and they often have an energized effect on those around them. Extraverts like to move into action and to make things happen–extraverts usually feel very at home in the world.
With their orientation to the outer world, extraverts often find their understanding of a problem becomes clearer if they can talk out loud about it and hear what others have to say.
People who prefer extraversion may:
be seen as “go-getters” or “people-persons”
feel comfortable with and like working in groups
have a wide range of acquaintances and friends
sometimes jump too quickly into activity and not allow enough time for reflection
sometimes forgets to pause to clarify the ideas that give aim or meaning to their activities
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Introversion (I)
Key words:
inner world • ideas • reflection • depth
People who prefer introversion are energized and excited when they are involved with the ideas, images, memories, and reactions that are a part of their inner world. Introverts often prefer solitary activities or spending time with one or two others with whom they feel an affinity, and they often have a calming effect on those around them.
Introverts take time to reflect on ideas that explain the outer world. With their orientation to the inner world, introverts truly like the idea of something, often better than the something itself, and ideas are almost solid things for them.
People who prefer introversion may:
be seen as calm and “centered” or reserved
feel comfortable being alone and like solitary activities
prefer fewer, more intense relationships
sometimes spend too much time reflecting and not move into action quickly enough
sometimes forget to check with the outside world to see if their ideas really fit their experience
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Sensing (S)
Key words:
facts • details • experience • present
People who have a preference for sensing are immersed in the ongoing richness of sensory experience and thus seem more grounded in everyday physical reality. They tend to be concerned with what is actual, present, current, and real. As they exercise their preference for sensing, they approach situations with an eye to the facts. Thus, they often develop a good memory for detail, become accurate in working with data, and remember facts or aspects of events that did not even seem relevant at the time they occurred.
Sensing types are often good at seeing the practical applications of ideas and things, and may learn best when they can first see the pragmatic side of what is being taught. For sensing types, experience speaks louder than words or theory.
People who prefer sensing may:
recall events as snapshots of what literally happened
solve problems by working through things thoroughly for a precise understanding
be pragmatic and look to the “bottom line”
work from the facts to the big picture
put experience first and place less trust in words and symbols
sometimes focus so much on the facts of the present or past that they miss new possibilities
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Intuition (N)
Key words:
symbols • pattern • theory • future
People who have a preference for intuition are immersed in their impressions of the meanings or patterns in their experiences. They would rather gain understanding through insight than through hands-on experience.
Intuitive types tend to be concerned with what is possible and new, and they have an orientation to the future. They are often interested in the abstract and in theory, and may enjoy activities where they can use symbols or be creative. Their memory of things is often an impression of what they thought was the essence of an event, rather than a memory of the literal words or experiences associated with the event. They often like concepts in and of themselves, even ones that do not have an immediate application, and they learn best when they have an impression of the overall idea first.
People who prefer intuition may:
recall events by what they read “between the lines” at the time
solve problems through quick insight and through making leaps
be interested in doing things that are new and different
work from the big picture to the facts
place great trust in insights, symbols, and metaphors and less in what is literally experienced
sometimes focus so much on new possibilities that they miss the practicalities of bringing them into reality
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Thinking (T)
Key words:
impersonal • truth • cool • tough-minded
People who have a preference for thinking judgment are concerned with determining the objective truth in a situation. More impersonal in approach, thinking types believe they can make the best decisions by removing personal concerns that may lead to biased analyses and decision making.
Thinking types seek to act based on the truth in a situation, a truth or principle that is independent of what they or others might want to believe or wish was true. The thinking function is concerned with logical consistency and analysis of cause and effect. As they use and develop their thinking function, thinking types often come to appear analytical, cool, and tough-minded.
People who prefer thinking may:
have technical or scientific orientations
be concerned with truth and notice inconsistencies
look for logical explanations or solutions to most everything
make decisions with their heads and want to be fair
believe telling the whole truth is more important than being tactful
sometimes miss seeing or valuing the “people” part of situations and may be experienced by others as too task-oriented, uncaring, or indifferent
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Feeling (F)
Key words:
personal • value • warm • tenderhearted
People who have a preference for feeling judgment are concerned with whether decisions and actions are worthwhile. More personal in approach, feeling types believe they can make the best decisions by weighing what people care about and the points-of-view of persons involved in a situation.
Feeling types are concerned with personal values and with making decisions based on a ranking of greater to lesser importance—what is the best for the people involved. The feeling function places high value on relatedness between people, and feeling types are often concerned with establishing or maintaining harmony in their relationships. As they use and develop their feeling function, feeling types often come to appear caring, warm, and tactful. Remember, in type language, feeling does not mean being “emotional;” rather, it is a way of reasoning.
People who prefer feeling may:
have people or communications orientations
be concerned with harmony and be aware when it is missing
look for what is important to others and express concern for others
make decisions with their hearts and want to be compassionate
believe being tactful is more important than telling the “cold” truth
sometimes miss seeing or communicating about the “hard truth” of situations and be experienced by others as too idealistic, mushy or indirect
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Judging (J)
Key words:
structured • decided • organized • scheduled
People who have a preference for judging use their preferred judging function (whether it is thinking or feeling) in their outer life. What this often looks like is that they prefer a planned or orderly way of life, like to have things settled and organized, feel more comfortable when decisions are made, and like to bring life under control to the degree that it is possible.
Since they are using either their T or F in their outer world, they want to make decisions to bring things in their outer life to closure. Remember though, this only describes how their outer life looks. Inside they may feel flexible and open to new information (which they are). Remember, in type language, judging means “preferring to make decisions;” it does not mean “judgmental” in the sense of constantly making negative evaluations about people and events.
People who prefer judging may:
like to make decisions, or at least like to have things decided
look task oriented
like to make lists of things to do
like to get their work done before playing
plan work to avoid rushing just before deadline
sometimes make decisions too quickly without enough information
sometimes focus so much on the goal or plan that they miss the need to change directions at times
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Perceiving (P)
Key words:
flexible • open • adaptable • spontaneous
People who have a preference for perceiving use their preferred perceiving function (whether it is sensing or intuition) in their outer life. What this often looks like is that they prefer a more flexible and spontaneous way of life, like to understand and adapt to the world, and like to stay open to new experiences.
Since they are using either their S or N in their outer world, they want to continue to take in new information. Remember again that this only describes how the person’s outer life looks. Inside they may feel very planful or decisive (which they are). Remember, in type language perceiving means “preferring to take in information;” it does not mean “perceptive” in the sense of having quick and accurate perceptions about people and events.
People who prefer perceiving may:
like staying open to respond to whatever happens
look more loose and casual
like to keep laid-out plans to a minimum
like to approach work as play or mix work and play
work in burst of energy, and enjoy rushing just before deadlines
sometimes stay open to new information so long that they miss making decisions
sometimes focus so much on adapting to the moment that they do not settle on a direction or plan
copied from:
https://cfd161.cfdynamics.com/knowyourtype
Myers-Briggs Personality Type December 2, 2008
ISTJ
ISTJs are sociable when comfortable in the roles they are playing; however, they generally do not share their wealth of rich Sensing observations and memories except with close friends. Others see their standards and judgments, their desire for structure and schedules, but they may not see their individual, sometimes humorous, private reactions.
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ISFJ
ISFJs are unassuming and quiet in their interactions, often putting the needs of others – especially family members – ahead of their own. They are uncomfortable with confrontation and will go a long way to accommodate others, through their respect for traditions and people’s feelings can lead them to challenge actions they perceive as hurtful or insensitive. People see their values, their desire for structure and closure, their kindness. What others may not see is the wealth of rich, accurate internal Sensing impressions and memories.
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INFJ
INFJs readily show compassion and caring for others, but they share their internal intuitions only with those they trust. Because they keep this most valued, important part private, others may find them difficult to know. When they try to communicate their internal sense of “knowing,” they often express it metaphorically and with complexity. They especially value authenticity and commitment in relationships.
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INTJ
INTJs present a calm, decisive, and assured face to the world, though they may find it difficult to engage in social conversation. They usually don’t directly express their most valued and valuable part: their creative insights. Instead, they translate them into logical decisions, opinions, and plans, which they often express clearly. Because of this, other sometimes experience INTJs as intractable, much to the surprise of the INTJ, who is very willing to change an opinion when new evidence emerges.
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ISTP
ISTPs are egalitarian and generally tolerant of a wide range of behaviors – until their ruling logical principles are attacked. At that point, they can surprise others by expressing their firm and clear judgments. ISTPs listen and seem to agree because they are not disagreeing; later others may find the ISTP was analyzing and making internal judgments.
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ISFP
ISFPs are adaptable and flexible unless something that matters strongly to them is endangered; then they stop adapting. They care deeply about people but may show it through doing things for others more than through words.
ISFPs tend to be quiet and unassuming, and their warmth, enthusiasm, and playful humor may not be apparent to people who don’t know them well. They prefer to observe and support rather than organize situations; they have little wish to dominate.
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INTP
INTPs are usually quiet and reserved though they can be talkative in areas in which they are especially knowledgeable. Unless their work requires action, they are more interested in the challenge of finding solutions than in putting solutions to practical use. They prefer not to organize people or situations.
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ESTP
ESTPs are strong in the art of living. They love life and immerse themselves in it; others respond to their enthusiasm and good humor. ESTPs are people of action. They usually dislike and avoid theory and written directions. Traditional schools can be difficult for people with these preferences, though ESTPs do well when they see the relevance and are allowed to experiment.
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ESFP
ESFPs get a lot of fun out of life and are fun to be with; their exuberance and enthusiasm draw others to them. They are flexible, adaptable, congenial, and easy going. They seldom plan ahead, trusting their ability to respond in the moment and deal effectively with whatever presents itself. They hate structure and routine and will generally find ways to get around them.
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ENTP
ENTPs are spontaneous and adaptable. They find schedules and standard operating procedures confining and work around them whenever possible. They are remarkably insightful about the attitudes of others, and their enthusiasm and energy can mobilize people to support their vision.
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ESTJ
Because they naturally devise systems, procedures, and schedules, others rely on ESTJs to take charge and get things done. Others may also find them overpowering at times because ESTJs are so certain about how things should be. Because they are clear and straightforward in their communication, people seldom have to wonder where they stand.
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ESFJ
ESFJs are energized by interaction with others and genuinely interested in others’ lives and concerns. They feel most comfortable in structured situations and enjoy creating order, structure and schedules. They prefer to do things the traditional and accepted way.
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ENFJ
ENFJs are energetic, enthusiastic, and very aware of others. Their genuine interest can usually draw out and involve even the most reserved person. They listen to and support others, but also have a very definite values and opinions of their own, which they will express clearly. ENFJs are energized by people and are socially adept; however, they also have a strong need for authentic, intimate relationships.
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ENTJ
ENTJs love, and are energized by stimulating interactions with people. They often challenge people’s statements and behaviors, expecting that others will defend them and that, as a result, mutual learning will take place. ENTJs admire and seek out people who are knowledgeable and who stand up to them, say what they think and argue persuasively.
copied from:
https://cfd161.cfdynamics.com/knowyourtype
unnecessary thoughts, yet again. September 17, 2008
hey,
just finished the quiz on chemistry lecture…yeah..
—-too tiring.
what’s happening to ME?!?!
lately, i have been pondering on some things..
>>huh? , and just when did i not think about unnecessary things? huh?
well, OKAY. let me re-phrase it, then:
as i have always been wondering..
i was thinking about what’s happening to me recently..
i mean, it’s just getting a BIT out-of-hand..
yeah, and i mean it. totally.
just. i just can’t contain it.
i can’t keep my smile OFF of my face.
really.
and it’s already bugging those people around me.
and at times, i think that..
i’ve probably lost it.
oh. oh..
but no, i did not.
i just can’t be not happy.
even though i think that this is really worth nothing at all..
like, i am wasting my hope..
as a friend told me,
to not think too much.
like that’s a possibility for me—hahahaha!!!
i never think less.
it’s ALWAYS too much.
if i don’t.
it’s not me.
LOL.
something is critically wrong with me!
hahahahaha!!!
also, i have been caught singing..
and humming…
and skipping…
and smiling…
and sighing…
and smiling again…
and singing…
and humming…
GOSH!
and it never breaks..
it continues..
people feel the excessive brightness and lightness of my aura..
haha. they say it’s almost shuddering that i am acting this way..
my friends…my old friends..
oh. WOW.
i just wonder,
on how will they take this in..
hahaha!!!
i am but ALL-SO-GIRLY!!
it’s almost unbearably disgusting..
hahaha!!
unbelievable, for me.
i can’t believe myself, neither..
is it not nice that for a change..
i am thinking of real people?
not just anime characters, anymore?
i mean, real, and tangible persons,
that are known to me.
^^
heh heh heh..
recently..
i have been..
ermm..
thinking of ———yuck! i’m about to spill it!!
noooooo~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~/o/
run!!!
\o\~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
okay fine. i’ll spill it.
for the sake of my sanity.
—urk. like i have been sane, lol.
heh. heh. heh.
it’s actually between ..
two…
guys..
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~/o/ i’ve said it!!!!!!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~/o/ run people!!
\o\~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
hahahaha!!!
well,
i have not been thinking about the other one… not until..
he sent me a message, for just about, some days ago? lol.
and terribly, to my distaste, i was still hoping for the …let’s call him A..
i was still hoping to see A… even for just a bit..
to be able to at least exchange some little talks..
or to my despicably horrible thought that he send me a text message—or so something like that.
well, i believe that he has connections, enough for him to effortlessly track my new phone number down. not unless, he’s getting so stupid as much as to be the -always, guh, always the gentleman,— to wait for me to personally give him my new number. tsk. grr.
he’s so pathetic. i tell you. he won’t argue with me. it’s so irritating.
i always get my way with him. and he won’t ever get mad at me. COME ON! i have been frustrating myself just to make him mad—but no! he only likes it better when i’m on it.
what drives me more into insanity is that, the last time i’ve seen him, he was actually having fun while seeing me get irritated at him. even told me, he missed me that much. erk.
so much for him, so much for his stupid, good-guy character..
how i wish that he be a bit of selfish at times.. geez… he does not have any idea on how much control he has on me…it’s a good thing that i’m a good actress…i can pretend otherwise..
or so i think. i really wish for him to see-though my lies.. if he can do that much..
he has his way. ^_^
duh. that’s only if he CAN.
and if he really MEAN it.
^_^
and the recently message-sender..
let us call him B. he, hmm..
he, uhmm…
err..
what can i say..
he…
i am only a bit disgusted about claiming that i miss him.
i think it’s okay..
since, i believe.. we are on good terms.. at least…
he, uhh.. he is my good friend.
as much as i want to call him kuya (older brother)…
he don’t like it.
or so i think..
well, i can say that, because..
when someone asked us, on what or how are we related to each other..
if we have something…or anything…
i remember answering.. that he’s a brother..
and i recall that he was disagreeing with me..
surely he did disagree, but i had the louder voice..
and so, i won the contest, and the answer that was accepted to that question is that..
we’re almost, blood-related. that close.
teeheeheee…
i remember,
i know, i should say..
that he likes(i wonder if i’m using the proper word–>>;;) cute girls.
and haha, happily, i don’t fall into that category. ^^ hooray!!
he prefers silence..
^_^
uhmm..
i don’t know..
but i feel so light around him..
like, i can do anything.. and he won’t bother…
sort of like that..
what i do know..
is that..
he is the first guy..
that i have claimed my boyfriend, while tugging one of his arms towards myself.
i remember that.. he did not utter a word about it..
i was just kidding when i did that, though..
it’s just to save him from a sticky girl that’s been bugging him..
or so that’s what i think..
hmm…
……
i say that giving this a proper thinking made me see things clearly.
what i have realized… about these things..
is the possible and most probably the truth..
first.
my explosive happiness..
when i knew that a certain someone sent me a message.
clearly, that was a misinterpretation.
i know that guy well enough, to know that he was only nice enough to be friendly.
just being totally friendly, as he has always have been with me.
and i know that it is only my unusually inappropriate wish to see that message in a different light.
that was very improper of me. and i am not pleased with the alien feelings that hovered all over me when i read the message…
yes. it is only my indiscreet fantasies.
well, i am SORRY for being such a GIRL for this one time…
that also applies to the other old friend that is all too nice to me..so much for being the nice guy..
it is, again, my fault that i tried to think of the things in a malicious way..
too much malice in me..
i am starting to be improper…
and this is SO NOT ME.
i am usually at control.
i am by own boss.
but this time why is it going all over the drain??
all my barriers that i have built to be able to protect my weak self from the others..
my shields that i have built to my utmost desperate attempt to hide my self from the eyes of the others…
all of it.
entirely.
it happened so fast…
so fast that even i was not aware of when it started to crash…
when it was mercilessly crushed to the ground..
why these two people..
can do so much to me…
why am i so affected?
it almost kills me just to think of them…
and i can not just ignore it.
grrr…
if you would only have the slightest idea on how i’ve died to attempt to ignore this stuffs…
it almost a year now…
and for the message-sender…it’s two years, even…
and it happened all in the past…
and i get so crazy when i get to meet them accidentally..
the nice guy, most of the time..
…..
was it my fault for having these feelings that are nothing but stranger to me?
i think they have they also have their part of this faulty and confusing situation to me..
they give me unnecessary things…
a lot of weird things,…
new things to me..
and they leave me without anything to make up about it..
it’s like leaving me a piece of paper..
and nothing more.
it’s a bit … err..
i really don’t know how to properly use words..
so i don’t know if i’m putting it in the proper way that it should be delivered…
i dont have any idea on why i received a paper–for instance..
i really don’t know….
they make me think of unnecessary thoughts…
they give me the feeling that…
it’s like as if..
they are trying to say something..
suggesting something…
that i cannot decipher..
they trust me so much as to understand what they are trying to make me understand…
but in all honestly —i don’t have any idea..
and so i am left to think of it alone..
i think, out of frustration..
i just made it look like…
they have ulterior motives behind those actions…
lol.
it’s like as if .
but, no.
i know them better.
and i know that they are only too good to be true.
haha. i should have known better.
that dwelling too much in this stuff—-it’s not good for my heart.
…
one moment, and i feel so euphoric,
that i even forget to breathe…
and the next second, i’m suddenly pissed off..
irritated and disgusted…
tell me, for i really don’t have any idea on how to CONFRONT these situations.
this is so new to me.
so alien.
i really don’t know what to do..
and so i will try, yet again, as i have always been, trying SO HARD to ignore.
and hopefully be able to STOP this nonsense.
and have my long-wished peace of mind.
i pray that they stop leaving me clueless..
i pray that they, finally get to have their spine to tell things straight to my face.
to finally put my mind at rest.
and not in grave chaos, just trying to decode what was hidden..
before i give up…since it’s creeping up on me now..
and i am slowly getting tired of this circuit..
all i want is to get things NAILED DOWN.
PUT THINGS STRAIGHT.
please, i can’t know everything.
they should know that.
really…it’s bugging me endlessly..
>_<
this is so SICK.
the message September 14, 2008
so much..
it’s always too much…
oh, hey!
did i mention my ECG result?
lol…it’s normal..
i am only diagnosed with Costochondritis.
lol
hmmmm??
i was kinda giddy…
well..
at least this last week…
^^
i feel like so..
unnecessarily happy..^^
it was triggered by a single,
few-word containing,
simple,
message.
^_^
it was all that was to make me like this.
i feel so utterly euphoric.
but not for long.
not before a friend—worriedly SICK—told me to stop.
and that he was worried for his friend–that’s me.
he’s scared that i might get hurt..–duh.
so lame, huh?
indeed.
i totally agree.
and so i did—argued with him, whatelse?
i told him, that i wasn’t dwelling too much for the matter..
and he was all, like, he can see me falling for the guy( who sent the message)
that i’ll fall for the guy and that i might be assuming too much…
for all i know, just WHAT DOES HE THINK HE KNOWS?
for all i care, this friend, andrew, he does not know the guy who sent me the message,
the single mesage that made my day.
this person who sent me the message,
he is an old friend..
an old,
special,
friend.
well,
he just said in his message:
kyaaa~
i’m so not gonna use his exact words…..
—-too embarrasing—-for me.
kyaaaaaaaa~~~!!
he just asked if it was me…
and that he is the one who sent it…
so to sum it all up.
what was indicated in the message:
an inquiry if it was ME.
and that it was HIM.
that’s all there is to it!
and ta-dah!
i was staring to my computer—heaven knows for how long that was..
i just can’t believe..
i can’t believe…
to …
ME?
me? receiving a message??
from HIM? even??
—-i know, this is a bit of an exaggeration…
but, sorry to burst your bubble, but, yeah,
unfortunately,
this is so true.
i can’t really believe it.
just too much..
i didn’t even know how to respond to it.
i just said in my reply message:
nope, I am ME.
^^
How are you?
–end of my reply message–
i am so sick.
yeah, i am.
hahaha..
i can’t decide on what to do the moment my eyes have laid out on the message..
i even forgot how to exhale..
i dunno if i was to scream…kyaaaa~
for all i know–that would lead to people swarming all around me the next minute..
and so i skipped that..
good thing i did..
but it did nothing to help me breathe properly…
i was inhaling the whole time..
and if i did exhale..
it was too long, too!!
i never got tired of staring at it..
hah. you’re starting to be scared now, huh?
i might really be taking this too seriously..
sigh..
i know..
i think..
i’ve got a crush on this guy..
sheeshh..
keep it low~
sheesshhh!!
^^
i just wish he does not get to read this.
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
what am i thinking??
writing this stuff??
lol
it’s crazy.
and i want to remember this day..
a day of craziness…
i want to remember this one day…
that i thought would never happen to ME.
for a simple message to make my DAY.
^^
honestly..
i was looking for this guy..
for who knows how long..
but that was ages ago..
and i was honestly taken by surprise..
when he sent me his message..
LOL
i just sincerely wish..
that he meant what he told me..
ages ago..
when we’re still together..
—i mean, when we still see each other..
that…
he wanted to keep me..
and that …
i don’t need to mind if he looks at other girls..
for it is only ME, that he loves…
that he said..
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I KNOW!
he might’ve been just messing around!!
for all i care!
it was only my stupid, pathetic wish..
that i wish it was real.
sigh…
so much for my pathetic-ness…
guess, that’s all for today.
^^
see ya guys, later~
ja ne~
happiness August 22, 2008
hah. i feel so much.
overwhelmingly…
outrageously…
heavy.
i feel so dense.
..
…
why do i feel like this?
is this the result..
of spoiling myself..
and do nothing but be myself??
is it really rude..is it really unfair??
am i unfair?
i felt so nice to be acting a whole lot of myself..
and then so suddenly..
it was so sudden…
that i felt sad—no, it’s not sadness— the word ’sad’ will be an understatement..
i felt worse than that.
and then what?
i felt so guilty.
why do i have to feel guilty when i know fully well for myself that i have done nothing wrong..
nothing..
i just made myself a treat.. in this last..what? five, six days??
and now? the feel of regret? no..this isn’t regret..
but i think..it is a bit of regret, so much that i want to deny that..
i dont want to regret having fun, in indulging myself to be me.
free of worries..pressures…and all of the things around me.
i have nothing but me.
is it really that bad to be selfish, even for this one time?
and now, it’s starting to flow against me,
the once caring and gentle wave that carried me flawlessly..
is now out of control—it’s whipping with full energy to push me off..
throwing me all around helplessly..
and i can’t seem to grasp..
what’s really happening..
what did i do??
is it really bad to swim and indulge to the vast, deep, quiet, and peaceful waters? for my one wish to be alone with myself..
and now..like a roar from a hungry lion, it washes me away..
left and right , up and down.. i was carried helplessly like a ragged doll..
…
i do not know what i want anymore..
and i dont like this feeling i am feeling right now..
why is it always like this??
hah.
i can’t believe i have fooled myself into thinking that i can be at the very least happy.
this made me realize that…
i can never be happy–no! and nothing will ever change that fact.
i must not be happy.
when i know that it’s going to be like this each and every time that my heart flutters with joy, that i would be definitely be feeling devastatingly wrong afterwards…
who wants happiness??
not me.
i have to always remind myself.
i can’t be happy.
aww..=D August 3, 2008
hiya!!
i’ve been up to something lately..huh??
XDD
yeah, i think so too.
neh,
to tell you the truth…
nah, i’ll just give you a short recap(for the time being^^)
you see,
i have been unstable lately(emotionally)—[eeww>_>]
and, i started to stay at the boarding house that my high school friend told me about.
we are roommates with her younger sister.^^ it was on the 15th of july.
and yeah.. i have been really busy doing a lot of stuffs..
and hm..
i am currently under medication..
they are (people around me) suspecting of ulcer..
but then again, i think that the doctor had written only “hyper-acidity”
lol, i am still under observation..hahaha
sore jaa.
>_<
i will post things that are taking place, took place, and are expected to take place,
next time^^
for now,
goodnight^^
p.s. ahhh~ i really miss wordpress..
i will try to post again here^^
lol..
i will try my very best..
though i don’t really promise..
since, i am supposed to take the preliminary exams next next week.
—and that’s not far from here!
haha.
so much for the exams..XD
i still have lots of things to worry about.:D
sore jaa~
God bless to all!
vK endIng sOng July 5, 2008
VAMPIRE KNIGHT ENDING SONG:
Akaku akaku akaku yurete
–in this crimson, crimson, crimson, I’m swaying.
yume no yume no hate e
–towards the end of this dream inside a dream.
Mou nando mo akiramete wa oshikorosu tabi
–everytime I yield, I only get crushed.
Ikiba no nai kanjou ga me o samashiteku
–My feelings, with nowhere to go, awaken.
Kegare no nai sono hohoemi zankoku na koto
–your smile is such a cruel thing.
tooru sonzai da to wakaru yo
–because I know you’re so far away.
Mienai kizu kokoro mushibamu dake na no ni
–my incurable wounds continue eating through my heart
Yami no naka ni ima mo yadoru omoi o osaekirenai
–I can’t hold back these feelings that lie in the dark.
Akaku akaku akaku yurete
–in this crimson, crimson, crimson, I’m swaying.
yume no yume no hate e
–towards the end of this dream inside a dream.
Deatte shimatta unmei ga mawaridasu
–the fate that we encounter, begin to move.
Dare mo dare mo shiranai himitsu
–this unknown secret
Ochite ochite ochite
–disappears, disappears, disappears
Mou modorenai tsumi o kizande mo
–even if er leave our sins behind, we can’t go back.
kitto
–no matter what
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a very brief summary of what had taken place in this week…
sunday:
–nothing special. 
monday:
–normal school day,
it rained.
–i made her smile.
it somewhat hurt but it was a relief.
tuesday:
–i lost my phone.
wednesday:
–nothing special. again.
–i was thinking of him. still.
thursday:
–my thoughts was materialized that day. though not all.
today( friday) :
–i went to see marian..
and she showed me the place..
–i met tita emily..
she’s nice.^^
that is all..
>>vampire knight anime is finished??
>>they say that season two is about to be released by october??
>_<
these, i still have to see for myself..
sore jaa~
sO stupId. June 29, 2008
i feel so much..
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i am so S-T-U-P-I-D.
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are you satisfied now?
a confession? June 26, 2008
how do i say this..
i mean…
i don’t even know how or what am i supposed to say..
but…
who cares? right?
right.
i really don’t know what to say when i am with you.
i am at loss for words…
i can’t even try to look into your eyes like before..
i am getting too self-conscious when you’re around..
i can’t think properly..
even though, i am fully aware that i shouldn’t be feeling this way.. after all, there was never ‘us’ anyways… and there will never be..
but why is it like this?
why do i feel this way?
why am i hurting?
i feel so pathetic. really pathetic. my heart hurts. and it’s all thanks to you.
this is getting more worse…huh..?
but,
i don’t blame you.
i , actually want to thank you.
thank you.
for teaching me a lot of things.
letting me learn by experience,huh?
well, it’s quite convenient..but.
it hurts. do you know that? doubt it.
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this is really pathetic.
