vK endIng sOng July 5, 2008

VAMPIRE KNIGHT ENDING SONG:

Akaku akaku akaku yurete
–in this crimson, crimson, crimson, I’m swaying.
yume no yume no hate e
–towards the end of this dream inside a dream.

Mou nando mo akiramete wa oshikorosu tabi
–everytime I yield, I only get crushed.
Ikiba no nai kanjou ga me o samashiteku
–My feelings, with nowhere to go, awaken.

Kegare no nai sono hohoemi zankoku na koto
–your smile is such a cruel thing.
tooru sonzai da to wakaru yo
–because I know you’re so far away.

Mienai kizu kokoro mushibamu dake na no ni
–my incurable wounds continue eating through my heart
Yami no naka ni ima mo yadoru omoi o osaekirenai
–I can’t hold back these feelings that lie in the dark.

Akaku akaku akaku yurete
–in this crimson, crimson, crimson, I’m swaying.
yume no yume no hate e
–towards the end of this dream inside a dream.

Deatte shimatta unmei ga mawaridasu
–the fate that we encounter, begin to move.
Dare mo dare mo shiranai himitsu
–this unknown secret
Ochite ochite ochite
–disappears, disappears, disappears
Mou modorenai tsumi o kizande mo
–even if er leave our sins behind, we can’t go back.
kitto
–no matter what

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a very brief summary of what had taken place in this week…

sunday:

–nothing special.

monday:

–normal school day,
it rained.
–i made her smile.
it somewhat hurt but it was a relief.

tuesday:

–i lost my phone.

wednesday:

–nothing special. again.
–i was thinking of him. still.
thursday:

–my thoughts was materialized that day. though not all.

today( friday) :
–i went to see marian..
and she showed me the place..

–i met tita emily..
she’s nice.^^

that is all..

>>vampire knight anime is finished??
>>they say that season two is about to be released by october??

>_<
these, i still have to see for myself..

sore jaa~

what a day! July 1, 2008

what a way to start the month..

O_o”

i lost my phone.

the most dramatic on-the-spot event in my life..

well…

one of the most..

anyways..

i’ll just tell the rest of the story next time, neh?

it’s past beyond my bedtime^^

sore jaa~

sO stupId. June 29, 2008

i feel so much..

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i am so S-T-U-P-I-D.

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are you satisfied now?

a confession? June 26, 2008

how do i say this..

i mean…

i don’t even know how or what am i supposed to say..

but…

who cares? right?

right.

i really don’t know what to say when i am with you.

i am at loss for words…

i can’t even try to look into your eyes like before..

i am getting too self-conscious when you’re around..

i can’t think properly..

even though, i am fully aware that i shouldn’t be feeling this way.. after all, there was never ‘us’ anyways… and there will never be..

but why is it like this?

why do i feel this way?

why am i hurting?

i feel so pathetic. really pathetic. my heart hurts. and it’s all thanks to you.

this is getting more worse…huh..?

but,

i don’t blame you.

i , actually want to thank you.

thank you.

for teaching me a lot of things.

letting me learn by experience,huh?

well, it’s quite convenient..but.

it hurts. do you know that? doubt it.

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this is really pathetic.

my schedule (2nd yr, 1st sem.) June 11, 2008

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MONDAY
—————09:00am-10:00am *********** PSY 1 ************ PHALL
—————12:00nn- 01:00pm *********** CHEM 100 ****** 316
—————02:00pm-03:00pm *********** PSY 234 ********* 317
—————04:00pm-07:00pm *********** CHEM 100L ***** LAB-1

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TUESDAY
—————07:00am-09:00am *********** SDC5 *********** A6
—————10:00am-11:30am *********** PHL5 *********** 317
—————11:30am-01:00pm *********** ENG 104 ******* 317
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WEDNESDAY
—————09:00am-10:00am *********** PSY 1 ********** PHALL
—————12:00nn- 01:00pm *********** CHEM 100 **** 316
—————02:00pm-03:00pm *********** PSY 234 ******* 317
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THURSDAY
—————10:00am-11:30am *********** PHL5 ********** 317
—————11:30am-01:00pm *********** ENG 104 ****** 317
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FRIDAY
—————09:00am-10:00am *********** PSY 1 ********* PHALL
—————12:00nn- 01:00pm *********** CHEM 100 *** 316
—————02:00pm-03:00pm *********** PSY 234 ***** 317
—————04:00pm-07:00pm *********** CHEM 100L ** LAB-1
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hmm..

and so it is..
i still don’t know my schedule for NSTP..
also,

our classes will start on 16th June, 2008.

^^

i am now a sophomore~ yay!
(or so i thought?)

raaAAAhh! May 30, 2008

you knOw what?!?

hhh….

wAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAhhh!!!

all of them…

ALL OF THEM!!!

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i cOuld diE…

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WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH!!!

everything..

ALL.

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…………………………………………………………………………………………………….>sulks<

all of my PRICELESS possessions..

my MANGA COLLECTION…

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!

it’s all in the old and disposed off HDD..

uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh!!!

o.O

…………………………………………………………shoOt me Dead………………………………..

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i just remembered.. and now THIS.

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i really hate this..

ZETTAI NI KIRAITTE!!!
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………………………………………………………………………………………………mou…
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…………………………………………………………….. alone.

swoop. May 29, 2008

ish currently reading inuyasha.. from chapters 548.. xD

since, i want to recall and read everything again..haha xD(time check: 9:17pm)..
xDD
>>> also, i have started reading vampire knight, all over again..haha! xD

kaname-sama~
!!!!!!

and here is another…
i like zero-kun too!
though..

i LOVE kaname-sama way much more~!!
xD

>sorry, to the zero-yuuki fans..haha!
but i FAVOR kaname-sama!!

hahahaa!!!

and d’oh…

this is my page, anyways!

XDDD

scram!

haha!

just kidding!

all around me — flyleaf May 28, 2008

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ALL AROUND ME — – FLYLEAF

My hands are searching for you
My arms are outstretched towards you
I feel you on my fingertips
My tongue dances behind my lips for you

This fire rising through my being
Burning I’m not used to seeing you

I’m alive, I’m alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I’m breathing
Holding on to what I’m feeling
Savoring this heart that’s healing

My hands float up above me
And you whisper you love me
And I begin to fade
Into our secret place

The music makes me sway
The angels singing say we are alone with you
I am alone and they are too with you

I’m alive, I’m alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I’m breathing
Holding on to what I’m feeling
Savoring this heart that’s healing

And so I cry
The light is white
And I see you

I’m alive, I’m alive, I’m alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I’m breathing
Holding on to what I’m feeling
Savoring this heart that’s healing

Take my hand
I give it to you
Now you own me
All I am
You said you would never leave me
I believe you
I believe

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I’m breathing
Holding on to what I’m feeling
savoring this heart that’s healing

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it’s so cOol.

love it.

xD

can’t sleep. May 26, 2008

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ask me why..

i don’t know either..

might be because, i am not accustomed to sleeping THIS early? (time check: 12:14am)
but you know..

i really hate this..

i hate it when i am not in control..
not in control…

of my very self.

i don’t know why i am like this..
or why do i feel this way..

i really have NO IDEA just what this is..

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i hate this..
i really do..

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why..

just what the HELL..

i feel like there’s something pointy inside my chest..
and that it is painful..

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waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

IT REALLY BUGS THE CRAP OUT OF ME!!!!

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why…

after all this time…

we haven’t had contact…

since after the high school graduation..( i am now an incoming college sophomore~ btw..>&gt
..

sure we meet at the road sometimes and some of a really few text messages..
but, that is all that is there to it. nothing more. nothing less.

so, okay.. if that’s the case..
then why am i doing all these STUPID stuff right now?
and the HELL is what about ‘that’ person’s relation to this rant, anyways?

hmm..

well..

DON’T ASK ME!!! .. i don’t know it either..

what i only know..
is that..
i hate it..
to admit..

that i suddenly remember ‘him’ at point-blank occasions..
i really don’t know why.. it can’t be another person..
or why it’s ‘that’ person, anyways..
and to add.. why i can’t get ‘that’ person OUT OF MY HEAD.. so… stupid.

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aaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH

why is it like this..

i feel SO PATHETIC.

i suddenly remembered him while i was singing..

“.. just when i thought i was over you..
..just when i thought i could stand on my own..
oh, baby those memories kept crashing through..
and i just cant..”

and, from there.. i wasn’t able to continue the song..
out of shock, to what the hell was i thinking at that moment..
and out of sheer disgust..of how the hell was i to be able to think of such things..

it IRKED ME.

i have lots of guys to think of.. boys(yeah, i am a girl, >&gt that can make my day,
with just the hint of thought.. like sagara sousuke-kun, inuyasha, himura kenshin..
hyuuga natsume-kun, kuran kaname-sama….and counting.. and counting… ^^

but, NO. this one..the littlest hint, this one gives me…
the weird, hot, and painful spark in my chest..

whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

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i feel like crying..
like i am so helpless..
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while having still no idea on why is these stuffs happening to me…
why can’t i understand.. a thing..

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!

i dont want this kind of feeling..
i dont want ANY of this..

I AM STARTING TO HATE MYSELF FOR THIS.

why, can’t i forget?……

like i always do?
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i did so, to all those things that i don’t even want to know anymore..

and i did so, now, even if i want to recall things, i dont know them anymore..

if it can make me feel numb..
and not feel anything that can hurt me..

i resign. and i am always doing it well..

i wonder..

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why this thing..
i don’t fully recall everything..

nope, nothing..but still..

why am i hurting?

it’s fine if i won’t see him ever again..

oh, please, just this simple wish of mine..

make me forget all about him..
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………………………………. please.

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i don’t know why,
after all these years..

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perhaps, i am the only one left in this state..

and maybe, he doesn’t even remember me anymore..
and YET, i still feel this way..

i really feel more STUPID and PATHETIC right now..

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I DONT WANT THIS!

Inuyasha. May 25, 2008

here is my list of torrent downloadable files for inuyasha!

[ I actually made this for myself, but, oh well, for the other anime fans too!!^^]

>>i just wish that this time it’s japanese dubbed and english subbed.
i wont accept it if it’s not this one.
ohohoho!!

^^

sore jaa~

A N I M E ::::: E P I S O D E

volume 01 (01-15)
volume 02 (16-30)
volume 03 (31-45)
volume 04 (46-60)
volume 05 (61-75)
volume 06 (76-90)
volume 07 (91-105)
volume 08 (106-120)
volume 09 (121-135)
volume 10 (136-151)
volume 11 (152-167)

only, guys out there..hmm..
you might be needing to download utorrent first, to be able to download from these links^^

ahem.. don’t worry!! it’s free anyways..hehe ^^

haha..kiryuu-kun..kawaii~ ne? ne?