neh..i have a guidance session at 01:00pm today…
and that’s—really soon. XD
oh well, i have been to and fro the guidance section of our college these past..uh, 3 weeks?
XD LOL!!
yeah, and i have talked and told ma’am chatt (our guidance counselor) things that i have thought to be difficult, for me. you see, unlike what i am doing right now, though i always post things here, without reservation, as it may seem, it’s not. i have always been and always will be holding back.
since, i know that, we, are supposed to be, ought to be, responsible , are held responsible in every action that we do. what i have consulted madam chatt there was, my ,uh, problems… with regards to..uh..i really don’t know which category this one will fall though.. it’s rather in between peers and academics. you see, i am having trouble, lots actually, whenever im in my home section. i just can never adjust to how my classmates cope with their academic difficulties. i just really can’t. because, they cheat. ….. wicked sick, huh? but more than that, it really became a hard thing to me, when i felt that, even without telling me directly, i can tell, that it’s like… ” if you don’t cheat, you are a big fool ” –like that, kind of not clear? it’s also like, “only fools don’t cheat” .. and i am quite taken aback of the things that are taking place at that certain place..that i don’t even know what to do anymore..
slowly, unconsciously, i am being corrupted. and so to not let that happen any further, i made myself distanced a bit from them, so as to not blurt things that might offend them, since i am a very bad liar to myself, like if i see that something is wrong, i’d certainly tell that it’s wrong. but i am not the kind of frank of a person. see, i say things in the nicest way i can see is possible, and i, most of the time, don’t accept bad things easily, because i want to see things in a good way. and i always tell myself that, it can never be bad, originally, but it is bad, because something might have caused it to be like that. i always think that, we, are all internally good. we only sometimes do bad things but it is not because that we chose to or maybe we did, but it is never our only intention to to bad things, and that we have only done those, because of some reasons. although, we are not to use reasons everytime we commit errors or bad things. we are all responsible for each and every act that we execute and do. haha.
my intended “short and breeze-like post” was not met. XDD
i am sorry for getting carried away..hahha
anyways..
i’ll be posting again, later this day.
sore jaa~
