raaAAAhh! May 30, 2008

you knOw what?!?

hhh….

wAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAhhh!!!

all of them…

ALL OF THEM!!!

……….

i cOuld diE…

…….

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH!!!

everything..

ALL.

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…………………………………………………………………………………………………….>sulks<

all of my PRICELESS possessions..

my MANGA COLLECTION…

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!

it’s all in the old and disposed off HDD..

uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh!!!

o.O

…………………………………………………………shoOt me Dead………………………………..

…………

i just remembered.. and now THIS.

…..

i really hate this..

ZETTAI NI KIRAITTE!!!
..

………………………………………………………………………………………………mou…
…………………………………………………….
………………………………………………………………………………………
……………………………………………leave………………………………………….
………………………………………………………………………….. ……………………………..
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…………………………………………………………… …………………………………………..
……………..me………………………………… …………. ………………….
…………. …………………………………………. ………………
…………………………………………………………….. alone.

swoop. May 29, 2008

ish currently reading inuyasha.. from chapters 548.. xD

since, i want to recall and read everything again..haha xD(time check: 9:17pm)..
xDD
>>> also, i have started reading vampire knight, all over again..haha! xD

kaname-sama~
!!!!!!

and here is another…
i like zero-kun too!
though..

i LOVE kaname-sama way much more~!!
xD

>sorry, to the zero-yuuki fans..haha!
but i FAVOR kaname-sama!!

hahahaa!!!

and d’oh…

this is my page, anyways!

XDDD

scram!

haha!

just kidding!

all around me — flyleaf May 28, 2008

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ALL AROUND ME — – FLYLEAF

My hands are searching for you
My arms are outstretched towards you
I feel you on my fingertips
My tongue dances behind my lips for you

This fire rising through my being
Burning I’m not used to seeing you

I’m alive, I’m alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I’m breathing
Holding on to what I’m feeling
Savoring this heart that’s healing

My hands float up above me
And you whisper you love me
And I begin to fade
Into our secret place

The music makes me sway
The angels singing say we are alone with you
I am alone and they are too with you

I’m alive, I’m alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I’m breathing
Holding on to what I’m feeling
Savoring this heart that’s healing

And so I cry
The light is white
And I see you

I’m alive, I’m alive, I’m alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I’m breathing
Holding on to what I’m feeling
Savoring this heart that’s healing

Take my hand
I give it to you
Now you own me
All I am
You said you would never leave me
I believe you
I believe

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I’m breathing
Holding on to what I’m feeling
savoring this heart that’s healing

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it’s so cOol.

love it.

xD

Six Minutes May 26, 2008

THIS IS A GREAT MESSAGE and SOME WISE ADVICE

YOU HAVE 6 MIN

This is without a doubt one of the nicest good luck forwards I have received.
Hope it works for you — and me!

You have 6 minutes

There’s some mighty fine advice in these words,
even if you’re not superstitious.
This has been sent To you for good luck from the Anthony Robbins organization..
It has been sent around the world ten times so Far.

Do not keep this message.

This must leave your hands in 6 MINUTES.

Otherwise you will get an unpleasant surprise.
This is true, even if you are not superstitious, are e agnostic, or otherwise faith impaired.

… … … … …

ONE. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.

TWO.Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.

THREE. Don’t believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.

FOUR. When you say, ‘I love you,’ mean it .

FIVE. When you say, ‘I’m sorry,’ look the person in the eye.

SIX.. Be engaged at least six months before you get married.

SEVEN. Believe in love at first sight.

EIGHT. Never laugh at anyone’s dream. People who don’t have dreams don’t have much.

NINE. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it’s the only way to live life completely.

TEN. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.

ELEVEN. Don’t judge people by their relatives.

TWELVE. Talk slowly but think quickly.

THIRTEEN. When someone asks you a question you don’t want to answer, smile and ask, ‘Why do you want to know?’

FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

FIFTEEN. Say ‘God bless you’ when you hear someone sneeze.

SIXTEEN. When you lose, don’t lose the lesson .

SEVENTEEN. Remember the three R’s: Respect for self; Respect for others; and Responsibility for all your actions.

EIGHTEEN. Don’t let a little dispute injure a great friendship.

NINETEEN. When you realize you’ve made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

TWENTY. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.

TWENTY-ONE. Spend some time alone.

Now, here’s the FUN part!

Send this to at least 5 people and your life will improve.
YOU CANNOT SEND IT BACK TO THE PERSON WHO SENT IT TO YOU!!!!!!!!!!
1-4 people: Your life will improve slightly.
5-9 people: Your life will improve to your liking.
9-14 people: You will have at least 5 surprises in the next 3 weeks
15 and above: Your life will improve drastically and everything you ever dreamed of will begin to take shape.
A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.

Do not keep this message

You have 6 minutes

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end of message~

>>>

jetaime^_^

can’t sleep. May 26, 2008

…

ask me why..

i don’t know either..

might be because, i am not accustomed to sleeping THIS early? (time check: 12:14am)
but you know..

i really hate this..

i hate it when i am not in control..
not in control…

of my very self.

i don’t know why i am like this..
or why do i feel this way..

i really have NO IDEA just what this is..

…

i hate this..
i really do..

…

why..

just what the HELL..

i feel like there’s something pointy inside my chest..
and that it is painful..

…

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

IT REALLY BUGS THE CRAP OUT OF ME!!!!

….

why…

after all this time…

we haven’t had contact…

since after the high school graduation..( i am now an incoming college sophomore~ btw..>>)
..

sure we meet at the road sometimes and some of a really few text messages..
but, that is all that is there to it. nothing more. nothing less.

so, okay.. if that’s the case..
then why am i doing all these STUPID stuff right now?
and the HELL is what about ‘that’ person’s relation to this rant, anyways?

hmm..

well..

DON’T ASK ME!!! .. i don’t know it either..

what i only know..
is that..
i hate it..
to admit..

that i suddenly remember ‘him’ at point-blank occasions..
i really don’t know why.. it can’t be another person..
or why it’s ‘that’ person, anyways..
and to add.. why i can’t get ‘that’ person OUT OF MY HEAD.. so… stupid.

…………………………………………………………………………………………………………

aaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH

why is it like this..

i feel SO PATHETIC.

i suddenly remembered him while i was singing..

“.. just when i thought i was over you..
..just when i thought i could stand on my own..
oh, baby those memories kept crashing through..
and i just cant..”

and, from there.. i wasn’t able to continue the song..
out of shock, to what the hell was i thinking at that moment..
and out of sheer disgust..of how the hell was i to be able to think of such things..

it IRKED ME.

i have lots of guys to think of.. boys(yeah, i am a girl, >>) that can make my day,
with just the hint of thought.. like sagara sousuke-kun, inuyasha, himura kenshin..
hyuuga natsume-kun, kuran kaname-sama….and counting.. and counting… ^^

but, NO. this one..the littlest hint, this one gives me…
the weird, hot, and painful spark in my chest..

whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

……………

i feel like crying..
like i am so helpless..
..

while having still no idea on why is these stuffs happening to me…
why can’t i understand.. a thing..

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!

i dont want this kind of feeling..
i dont want ANY of this..

I AM STARTING TO HATE MYSELF FOR THIS.

why, can’t i forget?……

like i always do?
..

i did so, to all those things that i don’t even want to know anymore..

and i did so, now, even if i want to recall things, i dont know them anymore..

if it can make me feel numb..
and not feel anything that can hurt me..

i resign. and i am always doing it well..

i wonder..

…

why this thing..
i don’t fully recall everything..

nope, nothing..but still..

why am i hurting?

it’s fine if i won’t see him ever again..

oh, please, just this simple wish of mine..

make me forget all about him..
…

………………………………. please.

…………

i don’t know why,
after all these years..

…

perhaps, i am the only one left in this state..

and maybe, he doesn’t even remember me anymore..
and YET, i still feel this way..

i really feel more STUPID and PATHETIC right now..

…………..

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……………

…….

……….

………………

I DONT WANT THIS!

Inuyasha. May 25, 2008

here is my list of torrent downloadable files for inuyasha!

[ I actually made this for myself, but, oh well, for the other anime fans too!!^^]

>>i just wish that this time it’s japanese dubbed and english subbed.
i wont accept it if it’s not this one.
ohohoho!!

^^

sore jaa~

A N I M E ::::: E P I S O D E

volume 01 (01-15)
volume 02 (16-30)
volume 03 (31-45)
volume 04 (46-60)
volume 05 (61-75)
volume 06 (76-90)
volume 07 (91-105)
volume 08 (106-120)
volume 09 (121-135)
volume 10 (136-151)
volume 11 (152-167)

only, guys out there..hmm..
you might be needing to download utorrent first, to be able to download from these links^^

ahem.. don’t worry!! it’s free anyways..hehe ^^

haha..kiryuu-kun..kawaii~ ne? ne?

i don’t mind. May 24, 2008

if it’s you..

oh..

kaname-sama..

o_O

kyaaaaaa~!

soushite…

natsume-kun!!

^^

kyaa!! kyaa!! kyaa!!

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VAMPIRE KNIGHT OPENING LYRICS

Akaku akaku akaku yurete yume no yume no hate e
(beyond the red, red dreams shaking)

Mou nando mo akiramete wa oshikorosu tabi
(how many times have we given up to this stiffling pressure?)
Ikiba no nai kanjou ga me o samashiteku
(these feelings with nowhere to go begin to close their eyes)

Kegare no nai sono hohoemi zankoku na koto
(has that smiles with no impurities been lost to cruelty?)
tooru sonzai da to wakaru yo
(i know that we are just passing existences)

Mienai kizu kokoro mushibamu dake na no ni
(although the unseen wounds are just eating away at my heart)
Yami no (naka ni) ima mo (yadoru)
(even now, as i remain in the darkness)
omoi o osaekirenai
(the thoughts of you wont stop weighing down my mind)

Akaku akaku akaku yurete Yume no yume no hate e
(beyond the red, red dreams shaking)

Deatte shimatta
(it is bad for us to meet)
unmei ga mawaridasu
(our fates begin to turn)
Dare mo dare mo shiranai himitsu
(a secret that nobody, nobody knows)
Ochite ochite ochite
(falling, falling, falling)
Mou modorenai
(we can’t return things to how they used to be)
tsumi o kizande mo
(no matter how much we slice apart these sins)
kitto
(surely)

^^

ahhh
..

gomen nasai minna-san~

i’ll try my best to edit this lyrics..

surely!!

because I, myself is not happy with these (ugh, translations?)

i really hate those stupid translators..

..

i hate it enough that i wanted to learn how to translate them all myself..

and i will be a good translator!

^^

sore jaa~

and also..

to add!!

i also loved the rhythm of the ending song..

i wonder if i can find any lyrics for it..

LAWL..hahaha

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Kanon Wakeshima – Still Doll lyrics(vampire knight ending song)

Hi miss alice
(hi miss alice)
Anata garasu no me de donna yume wo
(in your glass eye, what sort of dream,)
Mirareru no?
(are you seeing?)
Mirareru no?
(are you seeing?)

Mada atashi Kokoro ga sakete Nagarederu
(once again,my heart has burst,and is pouring out)
Tsukurotta Sukima ni sasaru Kioku-tachi
(“repair it” call in the memories that are trapped in the crevice.)

still, you do not answer.

still, you do not answer.

^^

that’s it!

>>watch it leisurely at crunchyroll! ^^ enjoy!

>>>i’ve copied the opening song from the first episode..(crunchyroll, of course!)
and the closing song from the second episode..(still, crunchyroll of course!-haha)
>>did it while watching..haha

sore jaa`

it’s soOo pretty! May 23, 2008

aww…

guess what?

hmm..

i’m reading GAKUEN ALICE..

^^

soo..

KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!

^^

weeeeeeeeeeeee

it’s just OMG..

at long last..

after so much time..

i really treasure this..

thanks to lean-chan..

for sharing such a wonderful site to me..

i sincerely..

deeply..

whole-heartedly..

thank you..

for letting me read..

GAKUEN ALICE!!

thanks..

THANKS A BUNCH!

^^

so…there…

haha

XD

nine puzzle May 22, 2008

hahaha!!

XDD

same as always..

i just felt like doing so..

you can read it online at onemanga.com

^^

nothing really..

haha..

^_^

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Love Song …. by Sara Bareilles

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Head under water
and they tell me to breathe easy for a while
the breathing gets harder, even I know that
you made room for me but it’s too soon to see
if I’m happy in your hands

I’m unusually hard to hold on to
Blank stares at blank pages
no easy way to say this
you mean well, but you make this hard on me
I’m not gonna write you a love song
’cause you asked for it
’cause you need one, you see

I’m not gonna write you a love song
’cause you tell me it’s
make or break in this
if you’re on your way
I’m not gonna write you to stay
If all you have is leaving I’m gonna need a better
reason to write you a love song today

I learned the hard way
that they all say things you want to hear
and my heavy heart sinks deep down under you and
your twisted words,
your help just hurts
you are not what I thought you were
hello to high and dry
Convinced me to please you
made me think that I need this too
I’m trying to let you hear me as I am

I’m not gonna write you a love song
’cause you asked for it
’cause you need one, you see
I’m not gonna write you a love song
’cause you tell me it’s
make or break in this
if you’re on your way
I’m not gonna write you to stay
If all you have is leaving I’m gonna need a better
reason to write you a love song today

Promise me that you’ll leave the light on
to help me see with daylight, my guide, gone
’cause I believe there’s a way you can love me
because I say
I won’t write you a love song
’cause you asked for it
’cause you need one, you see

I’m not gonna write you a love song
’cause you tell me it’s make or break in this
is that why you wanted a love song
’cause you asked for it
’cause you need one, you see
I’m not gonna write you a love song
’cause you tell me it’s make or break in this
if you’re on your way
I’m not gonna write you to stay
if your heart is nowhere in it
I don’t want it for a minute
Babe, I’ll walk the seven seas when I believe that
there’s a reason to
write you a love song today

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sore jaa~

ugh.. my back hurts again.. >>

whirl. May 21, 2008

from dakishimete noir manga..

hmm.. suzu-chan isn’t here, huh?

oh well..

hmm..

it’s pretty late..

and i am tired..

my lower abdomen hurts..

tch..

yeah…

the monthly visitor..

[yuck]

whatever.

i am feeling a bit dizzy again..

………

wait..before i go..

i want to thank lean-chan..

^^

for sharing a wonderful online manga site^^

^^

though i haven’t started..

whoa.. it hosts licensed mangas!!!!

weeeeeeee

for those people who can’t get enough of their mangas..

try this one! ^^

hehehe..^^

thank you lean!!!!

^^

hehehe..

and oh, for ensui-nii,

lol

niichan really worries too much…

i am not diabetic, lol..

and those ants around me..

it’s pretty much because iam simply sweet, right?

and to add, hmm…

it might’ve been because of the remains of some choco candies that i hid beside my pillow
(at night..lol)—this i am not sure..lol

…i’ve tried to switch places with my cousin(to sleep), one night, and yeah.. hell the ants is really on MY side..hahaha

oh well, it’s nothing serious, so dont worry bout me^^

…………………

also keil-chan,

he wants me to pick my top10 of his posts..under of course his blogsite..^^

well.. i am quite taken aback by the posts..

i am just about to recover from some dark experience, that is not easy to let go of..

i really feel the hurt in those short poems..

sigh..

i really need time in reading those posts..

for sure, keilchan does not want me to just go over them and lightly scan, right?

i want to read them, with my heart,[it may seem yucky to some, but, who cares!haha]
well, that’s how i usually read anyways…

it must’ve been my way of appreciating the work of the author of anything that i am reading,have read, and will be reading in the future.

i really love reading…

from the short stories, to the longest running stories..
[well, atleast they get me interested enough for me to turn my neck to read it!XD]

oh well..

also, i have talked to vic..

he said he’d be shifting to legal management AB..

sigh.. he used to be my classmate, BS psychology..

…..

..

…

..

this day has been a real busy day for me.

i felt pain[physically]..lol

i felt enthusiasm and so much excitement!!
(for seeing gakuen alice manga, made my heart skip a beat!)

i felt deep emotions that was usually kept under control..
(usually i keep it cool)

and i felt sadness..
(seeing another classmate leave before my sight…though we’re still on the same campus)

and right now..

counting that my lower abdomen is hurting..
(another reasons i hate being a girl.. tch..>>)

my back is hurting and i am feeling dizzier by the moment..
it’s like my energy is getting drained…

….

whatever..

to all of you who read my posts..

thanks..

and lol, i wont apologize to noone..
i didn’t offend anyone.
and i certainly did not asked you to read this boring stuff…

HAHAHA!!

im kickin’ this thing off now..

so, you guys take care now!!

ja na~

i still have my nightly appointment with my train…lol XD

go to sleep!

haha!!