rawr April 9, 2008
ah-ah..
hisashiburi dana..
hmm..
i’ve gotten much livelier now…
ahem..
at the very least, that is..
so, what have i been doing all this time?
hmm..
well i am a bit lazy to tell everything but sure i’ll try to make it short.
i spent the holy week at the province.
ah…yeah.
and i’ve read mangas..a bit.
ranma, rurouni kenshin, and inuyasha.
hmm..
finished them all..
also bleach and skip beat.
and whatelse have i been reading..eh?
well..most of the time if i am not in front of the computer..
it’s like as if..
i’ve thrown away my life..
seems like i’ve died sometime ago..
but you know, i am quite starting to learn that what i am doing
for this past weeks..yeah..its weeks now..
was hell.
what i am doing to myself.
it’s hell.
and i am starting to think that its rather pointless.
so. here. finally, i am able to gather enough courage to post again.
well..i do hope to do a better job this time.
lol
i really wish from the bottom of my heart to be cured from this wicked illness as soon as possible.
i wish for a stronger heart.
i wish to be braver.
i really do wish for strength, so that i can overcome my personal problems.
yeah..quite ironic, isn’t it?
i am having difficulties in dealing with my very own self.
sigh.. and i am not going to deny that i am scared of myself at the same time.
i am scared of what i can do.
if the time comes that i will lose to myself..i will not be able to bear it..
i am mostly scared of losing ‘control’.
..
thinking it through..with time… i realized..
that i don’t need to think of anything.
that i don’t have to hold back.
and to do whatever my heart’s desires.
..surething.
but it seems for me..
to be that carefree..it is so not like me.
and doing such thing won’t let my heart at ease either.
..
sigh..whatever..what i am trying to point out is that..
hmm..
what is it again?
….i am trying to find myself.
that is what i am doing.
i want to understand myself.
this, if discussed further might be pointless..since i can’t understand it either.
hahahaha..
it’s just my opinion that is.
LOL
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swooooshhh
*chanting*
begone EVIL SPIRIT!! BEGONE!!
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well what the hell.
neh neh..
it’ summer already..heh heh heh
try this iced-tea flavored four-seasons and lychee..
it’s sooooo delicious!
i simply love it.
hahaha
…
forgive me(whoever you are),
if you can’t find the very essence of this post.
hahaha. [poor you!--joke.]
if its the case that you can’t follow the content of this post..
surely. i don’t think i am held responsible anyways..lol
haha..you are just but one unlucky person today..
to find such a wicked link….lol..
well, i couldn’t care less, though.
ma…
i am tired..
well let see what i can do for today..lol
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~
