dort. March 12, 2008

whoa..
i feel so terrible..
really..
so i am still no good after all?
i am still useless..
what a crap..
i am so useless..
what the..
i don’t have the luxury of excusing myself anymore..
i have no more reasons..
no.
i don’t have anything.
nothing.
just a load of crap.
—
nah. i will not cry anymore.
i am tired of it.
i am sick of it.
what the hell is crying for?
it’s annoying.
it’s irritating.
though..
it’s the only thing i am good at.
alone.
doing things alone are the best.
you don’t have to think of no one.
just you.
and yourself.
…
people.
what are they.
they are scums of the earth.
hypocrites.
what the.
they keep on acting like as if they are practicing charity..
what? on thinking that they are helping..who?
me? you?
shut it.
give me a break.
and what kind of help might it be?
hm.
i will tell you one.
for instance, telling you everything you lack and suck at.
in it’s most brilliance and utter elegance.
and not to mention,
not to get tired of making you realize how useless you are.
thinking that they are helping you realize things for the better.
what the hell. the heck.
what do they know?
awesome.
so they are trying to say that they know you better than you yourself?
shut the thing.
just leave me alone.
i am better off alone.
i don’t need those stupid mockeries..
i am useless, so what?
if i am that useless then what are they?
it’s really funny.
ha. ha. ha.
what a mess.
what do those people know about failing?
they always see things in their respective perspectives..
always and always at their leisure.
well, what do i expect?
come to think of it.
it was all my fault.
i am at fault for thinking that they really do.
and can understand me.
i am such an idiot.
for fooling myself to even hope for it.
really, really an idiot.
.

i want to die.